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Friday, August 11, 2006

Heys... it's another long time since i come online le...
so long i didnt update my blog...
i felt quite miserable when i get back my MT result...
i thought i can reach my target...
but to my disappointment, i didnt...
i thought of retaking but i am afraid that i will not be able to do as well... maybe get back the same result or worse... (like a waste of money)...
Through experience from other friends... think that end of year de can do better...
though i may feel disappointed, but i have a strong feeling that God is comforting me...
i felt a great relieve..

But some other thing happened...
there's this one time when i messaged a friend of mine...
i msged something which i think will hurt him...
becoz when i was typing this msg...
i felt that i have done wrong... i myself feels the hurt there too...
i hesitated... thinking whether to sent him or not??
then... my fingers pressed on it... and there the msg goes... to his hp...
at that moment i a bit regreted...
i sent him this msg becoz i was angry...
he replied and i know that is the end of me...
after he replied i cried...
i felt so confused...
i have no idea what i am doing that had lead me to this ending...
how come this will happen to me??
what am i thinking at that time...
i am so confused...

now i have to depend on myself and the help of my friends and my teachers...
i do not know how to face him...
i wanted to apologise but the words just cant come out of my mouth...
my mouth is just so stubborn...
i used to say sorry to him very often... but just this time i don know why...

Having those times with him will never be forgotten...
the way he encourages me...
the way he sent me to hell... (tonnes and tonnes of homework, scoldings, etc...)
the way we joke together...
the way we played together...
the way we really do silly, stupid and idiotic things together...
the names given to me every months...
the days when we went out together...
etc, etc, etc, etc.......................................................
Will never be forgotten... :)

We have not talked for a long time since the day i msg him...
regreted and feeling remorseful...
Hoping that we can talk to each other again...
but i think is just my wishful thinking...
haiz...

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|9:50 AM|

Friday, July 21, 2006

Heys...
is a long time since i updated my blog...
don know what to say also...
so sian..
study, study and study...
don know whether got go into the brain anot?
Haiz...
Finding people to study together...
haiz...
who will want to come and study with me leh?
Hope i can cope with my study and can get good results in 'O' levels..
Hehe!!

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|11:37 PM|

Thursday, July 13, 2006

nothing to say...
just the normal things...
feeling abit moody... maybe...
today Eng lesson so sian...
just know what is chunking and have to do chunking
chunk, chunk. chunk...
then got homework...
have to do chunking also...
Hope that i will have the initiative to study harder...
MY ENGLISH... is sux like hell...
so poor...
have to improve...
For those who read my blog who scored well for their Eng...
Pls tell me how did you all get to do so well...
All i know is to do practices, read more books and newspapers...

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|7:37 AM|

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Hmm...
finally the graduation CD finish le...
do the CD so long with Cindy and Danny...
actually finish very long de...
then the computer spoil...
then have to redo... luckily got redo...
then now look nicer...
like the video so much...
Haiz...
so sian...
today got POA test...
so dfficult...
some don know how to do...
almost 1 question like that didnt do...
haiz

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|2:41 AM|

Thursday, July 06, 2006

It's a long time when i posted my last post...
Now trying to cut down the usage of computer..
i want to put my 'o' level first...
very stress without help...
help to seek from teachers and friends...
Last time still have one special friend who helped me...
but now without this friend's help... i have to depend on my own le...
i just pray and hope that i can cope well with my subjects and ..
can do well my all my exams...
Sometimes just don know what to do...
Thinking of giving up...
Since i have chosen to come back to sec 5..
that means i CAN...
"it may seem difficult but it is possible.."
Just hace to push myself harder...

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|8:49 AM|

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Haiz... so long didn't update my blog already..
busy with my own personal things..
tell myself not to use the computer before my o level finishes...
then i think to myself... from today to o level is very long...
then i will not be able to update my blog...
WHAT SHOULD I DO??
then i think...
i will only update my blog... and will not go to any website or chat with anyone..
i must use this time to study...
what QX say is correct...
i would either suffer now or in the future...
if i suffer now and get good results then i will not have to suffer in the future...
get good job and good postion...
but i just cannot ge myself to do so...
something is just hindering me...
Haiz...
Jsut don know what to do...
can someone just come and give me spme ideas and encourage me to
WORK HARD!!
Can someone come and counsel me and motivate me??

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|10:08 PM|

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

hOw'S my dAe toDay??
doN kNow whAt to sAy leH ...
siAn aR..
MorNinG: gO maRkEtinG wiTh my moTheR tiLL aFternOOn
aftErnOOn: heLp to cOOk diNNer
waTcH my faVouRiTE shOW (swEEt 18)
nIghT tiME: gO foR tuItiOn foR loNg hoUrs..
bEtteR thAn lAst tiME... toDae leArNt alOt oF thiNgs..
(aLl mUst tHAnk to hOe qI xIanG).. hehe...
by The tiME i reAch hoME is alReadY midNiGht..
toDae noThinG reALly inTereStinG ba...
tHE daE juSt paSt lIke tHat...
hAIz..

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|9:33 AM|